Last week my wife and lost our first child, Fiona Michelle, was stillborn.
We have a small idea of what happened, but not 100% sure. We are in pain, but our faith in God and the support that we have surrounding us. Time will heal our hearts, but we will always miss not having our Fiona girl to hold and love.
I think I am writing this not to invoke sympathy, but so that I can come back in the future and see where I have grown from this point I time.
My heart swells with the thought of entering Heaven's gate and seeing my Fiona standing there waiting for me to pick her up, and love her for eternity in a perfect world void of sin and death.
As hard as this has been it will hurt less with time, but my plea to all parents is to cherish the time with your children. I will never take LIFE for granted after this moment in our life.
I also know with Fiona watching me that I must live a life that will make her proud of her daddy.
This one is for the one's who have bought a kilt, but have yet to step up and step out into the world. Maybe you picked up that kilt at a renaissance faire or a highland games, so you would blend in or so you could be part of the crowd, and you plan on wearing it again when you go back. Meanwhile you have a kilt hanging in the closet begging to be worn, to be seen, why pay over the top festival prices for a kilt that will be worn once a year?
The time has come for you to enjoy your investment ane put that kilt on and introduce the world to your kilted self. What's the worst that can happen? Somebody you don't know comes and talks to, you get awked a few embarrassing questions, or nobody really seems to care. In any of those situations you are not going to be any worse for wear.
Make the look yours, wear you favorite boots or shoes, flip flops even work or say screw it and go barefoot. However you wear it doesn't matter really, as long as the pleats are in the back, what is important is that you wear it. Be confident, be bold, be kilted!
Once you have worn the kilt a couple of times you feel more confident in it and you can really start coming out of your shell.
My first time stepping out in a kilt, other than at highland games, was my senior prom! I tossed myself in the fire, people know how mean, rude, or judgmental high schoolers can be and that's where I chose to come out as a kiltie to the world. To my surprise and delight I never heard one negative comment, at least not to my face.
You have to make the decision to not care what everyone else is going to think about you. You don't have to brave or daring you need to be bold and unfazed by the world.
You already took the first step and purchased a kilt, now don't let it sit around for eleven months just waiting for next years faire put it on and take the world by storm.
Kilt up and be a true brother of the brotherhood.
A close friend of mine has at times referred to me as a confused German because my heritage is Germanic, but I wear the kilt, and for some time she may have been right.
This past weekend my wife and I had the pleasure of attending the inaugural Houston Highland Games Association's Robert Burns Supper. While not our first Burns supper, it was the first large supper we were privileged enough to go to. We saw old friends we hadn't seen in quite some time, ate haggis, and had an enjoyable evening out. I was even asked to be one of the sword bearers when it came time to pipe in the haggis, an honor I wasn't expecting.
This got me thinking today, how the kilt has effected my life. I have zero Scottish blood in my vains, but I wear the kilt proudly and joyfully. If not for the kilt I would never had experienced the highland games, never been married in a Prince Charlie, and necer realized my love of the bagpipes, listening not playing.
If the kilt never entered my life I would never have known about Robert Burns and the beautiful words he crafted in his songs and poems, and this last weekend never would have happened.
Being a member of the Clan MacLeod Society I have attached myself to a Clan that I can call family and wear their tartan, and I have made lasting friendships through them.
Even though I found a clan to call home I still had my own heritage to be proud of, and wanted to be able to represent it. So imagine my delight when I found the German American tartan on USA kilt's website, unfortunately when I got to the point of being able to afford one that tartan had been discontinued. Heart broken I started for another German tartan, and to my delight USA kilts had another tartan for me the German Heritage tartan, it was soon mine.
Having been a member of the Brotherhood of the Kilt for some years and trying ane failing more than once to get a BotK kilt when I saw a chance to help get that tartan back into production, I had to take it. It took a few years for all the behind the scenes stuff to shake out, but we finally have a place to get these kilts again, and I believe ALL BotK members should get one of these affordable kilts, find them at got-kilt.com.
It is these two kilts that I wear most proudly. The German Heritage because it represents everything that I am, a man of German descent that wears the kilt.
The Brotherhood because I had a small hand in it being back in production, but also because what the brotherhood stands for, promoting the kilt for ALL no matter where you come from, what your background, tall or short, skinny or rotund, man or woman the kilt is for us all.
Life is much more interesting when you wear a kilt, strangers want to talk to you, you find a confidence that wasn't there before, and a whole other world is opened to you.
I am no longer a confused kraut, I know exactly who I am, I am the Kilted Texan and I have German Blood and a Celtic soul.
I encourage any of you that love the kilt but haven't yet put one on and stepped out of your front door and gone into the world, do it, and do it proudly you will never regret it.
Late in the season, but I got to compete today, and d@mn I wish there was more time for the games. I did get bit again, so more training, more lifting, and more kilts are in the future. The time out in the field with the other athletes, the male bonding, encouragement, the off color remarks, and the personal glory are all things that make the games great.
Each man is their own competition, the highland games are one of the ultimate individual sports. Sure there are rankings 1st, 2nd, and 3rd but each man is really throwing against himself and not the entire field. Soccer, football, swimming, they were all great when I competed, but none of the come close the comradery that I experience when at the games. I am not the biggest, strongest, or most talented in the field, but dammit I have fun! Men and women for that matter if you ever have a chance to get into the games give it a try, you won't regret it.
Gentlemen, as experienced kilties we should sheapard those that are new to the brotherhood of wearing kilt wearing. It is fine to crack a smile and have a laugh, but then we should step up and correct any problems that we see. Pleats in the front? Let them know. If they are wearing their sporran wrong, inform them. Let them know so they can wear the kilt proudly and happily. If we really are going to be a brotherhood then we need to be our brothers keeper. Be strong, kilt proudly and watch out for the chance to help a brother.
Back in my dungeon barn tomorrow. Heat, weights, and sweat. Ti e to get rid of the excuses. Then next week I will start training for September 10,Highland Games competition. Will need encouraging from my wife and wouldn't mind some good words from kilted brethren. I need to drop some fat and put on muscle, so a tweak to the diet may be coming shortly. Unfortunately it is more expensive to eat healthy than to not. Need to be strong for the games, and look good for Texas Renaissance Festival in October.
Got back to it this afternoon. Couple sets of light squats, weighted sit-ups, and a few other exercises.
Slow start, but I have to start somewhere. The strength will come.
Just got done enjoying a fine cigar, some whisky, and conversation with an old childhood friend. Kilted, no, but enjoyable anyway.Catching up and talking about old times, was a great way to end a frustrating and busy week of work. When having this kind of entertainment, you lose track of time. Spent 3 hours talking and smoking felt like an hour tops. Whenever you get these chances, take full advantage my friends. We hadn't seen each other in a couple years, but we never skipped a beat. Now for a shower and some Zzz's. Kilt on brothers and cherish those friendships that can last a lifetime.
1. German Heritage by USA Kilts
2. MacLeod of Harris
3. Team kilt MacLeod of Lewis by Sport Kilt
4. MacLeod of Lewis
5. Pride of Scotland by UTKilts
6. Texas Bluebonnet by Kommando Kilts
7. Khaki by TactiKilt
8. Black TDK by 5.11
9. Texas Bluebonnet by Scotland Forever (my 1st and only 100% wool, made in Scotland)
10. Black Watch
11. The much anticipated 11th kilt! Brotherhood of the Kilt tartan by Got-Kil
Looking forward to Saturday. Me and my Texas Renaissance Festival camping clan are going to hit up some thrift stores in search of garb, or things we can make into garb. Going to be in my Sport Kilt "Team Kilt" With Loud MacLeod pleats. So anybody in the Richmond/Rosenberg, Sugarland area see us out and about say howdy. If I find anything will be posting pictures Saturday evening or Sunday.
Had a great day with best friends shopping, eating, and smoking. Only piece of clothing that I found was this leather vest. Needs some additions put on it, but for less than $10.00 you can't beat it.